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and i know its a bit ridiculous that im venting about this on here. i just dont know what to do. im so numb.
i cant even say it. i cant say the word.
r--e. four letters. and i cant say it, or type it. there is just so much going on, people calling, police reports, hospital visits and interviews. possibly a trial. and i just want it to stop.
rape. why me?
"On top of the world
you´re on top of the world
So now just train my eyes and name our wars
the safe addiction and plastic autocrats
arms been saved for the bitter ends
you know we´re waiting for your skies to land
On top of the world
you´re on top of the world
Now they´re by your side
now we´re on your side "
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[23 Aug 2006|12:23am] |
just sucks. i feel so dumb. only 3 days left and i am becoming an emotional wreck. i cant do this. im not strong enough. im still a little kid!!
what happened to being so excited and ready to get out of fl??
i cant do it. i just cant. im too scared.
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[10 Jun 2006|04:52pm] |
IM LEGAL BABY!!
....and back from my cruise
....and watching Argentina crush the african team woot woot
....and i have crazy braids in my hair
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[29 May 2006|04:42pm] |
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how the heck am i going to come up with 26,000 dollars??
ahhhh
i wish i would have chose UCSC instead.
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[13 May 2006|12:15pm] |
im longer a high school student!!
WOW
It feels w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l
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[25 Mar 2006|10:27am] |
where is everyone going for college??
especially...is anyone going to be near the santa cruz/san fran area??
oooh and ALSO who won what for sr hall of fame or w/e?
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[28 Feb 2006|09:07pm] |
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GUESS WHO IS GOING TO COLLEGE!!
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
so in five months, i will be in santa cruz,california
where i will hopefully be reunited with old old friends
and my lover
and i will be a maroon and gold BRUIN
and i will laugh and cry and stress out and cheer and be merry but poor.
.....ahh i can breath now. oh wait. no i cant i have to find MONEY! and pass my AP tests.
damn.
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[31 Jan 2006|02:37pm] |
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so today was the first time in about a week that i actually went to all my classes
this is mostly due to the fact that last week was hell week for districts and since we didnt have a sponser/director it was really stressful. we had to basically start from scratch with our one act and didnt even get to run it at all untill thursday at Dr. Phillips HS
so yeah, our week was filled with staying at school building and painting the set, at 2 am the day OF districts..
...and me and patrick getting the garden cart stuck in a hole cuz i wanted to make a ramp so we could get some air with it...
...and falling asleep on the couch during 4th period....
SO ANYWAYS,
thursday, we go to DP for the competition and watch the first few one acts, and i realize that my friend will is in the second one, and afterwards he comes over cuz it turns out i had been sitting by his friends so we were reunited...
but then we find out that our three trucks that were cming with our set and props were in a car accident (matt was in one too but he was ok) so it turns out our set is literally snapped in half, and we arent sure about our props and costumes.
so then i started getting my migraine which ended up lasting the whole weekend on and off through today.so i went to elise's car and drank some gerber pear juice.
we load in and im freaking out and even more when i realize that boys and girls have one tiny dressing room. so then we perform, and things went alright..i guess for our first run through ever.
so we got straight excellents (tech, acting etc) this was ok, but not enough for states (you need overall superiors for that out of poor,fair,good,excellent and supieriors)
friday was more one acts, but it was fine cuz i didnt have to stress out about anything
then saturday, after getting about 3 hours of sleep, we had our individual events.
im getting tired of typing so----
our "eleven variations.." ensemble scene got overall "excellents"
my small group musical got overall freakin "superiors"! (states baby)
and me and shane got a "good" for our duet scene. stupid.
overall our troupe got mostly superiors and excellents and MIKE got BEST IN SHOW for his student directed scene!!!
after all that, i watched the large group musicals perform on the stage, the school that did RENT, ruined it..
one school did a song from peter pan, so good times good times..
then we went to the closing cermonies which lasted frm about 630 till 1230am..i ended up falling asleep after i watched mikes scene perform and untill everyone woke me up to go on stage and get my ribbon..
whew
long weekend/update
in other news, im now memorizing my patty simcox lines from GREASE
ok so pictures from new years/districs will come soon..
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[02 Jan 2006|05:37pm] |
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
mine was spent playing ten fingers and chubby bunny.
who did i kiss?? no one. when midnight struck, this random couple on tv made out, and then patricks parents made out and we looked at each other...it was very awkward and then we both went off and called chris and elise.
anyways hoorah for 2006!! i know, i just know its going to be 203884029384023984 times better than oh five
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back from cali
quick review-
1st day-got into LAX, got picked up by a driver. dad's house. chris met me there. hannah comes over later, target, mcdonalds and chris leaves. go to hannahs house, till dad gets home.
2nd day-walked to han's, woke her up. watched movies in our pj's. went shopping at hollywood and highland. dad off work and we drove to sb, had denny's at like 11pm and then drove back.
3rd day-woke, and went to my dads motorcycle club get together thing. then chris and i went back to hollywood, walked around. went to the erotic museum heh heh and then he left.
4th day- hannah and i went to SB, picked chris up, gave him a haircut, went to DP for nutrition, then anna's and then borders where she got love coupons for nick kackert. went back to DP for lunch, saw hardly anyone and im guessing most seniors leave? but i still got to see some cool people like gabe :)
5th day-did car stuff.
6th day-chris and i got up at like 4, and drove to SANTA CRUZ! only got to spend like 3 hours there but it was great. we went to cabrillo first, i talked to the cheer coach, and got info about financial aid and etc. then we went to UCSC and drove around and took pics and stuff and got in touch with this guy who was really cool but basically told me i had to do this thing and even if i did it now there was a very slim possibility i would get in. so yeah...no prob since i wanted to go to cabrillo anyways (residency issues) but now my parents are saying if i dont get in somewhere, and get in somewhere else, i have to go right into the school i get into. so basically i can never go to ucsc. but im working on it.
7th day- thanksgiving! saw walk the line wiht my dad and chris and it was ok. then we went to hometown buffet for dinner.then i made chris see rent. he hated it. i liked it except for the singing. there was just too much of it. it could have been better. poor chris. i think he wanted to die.
8th day-dad and i took chris home, and then on the way driving back we stopped at a friends house for dinner
9th day-dad chris and i went to venice! my favorite place basically (oh yeah and santa cruz the town reminds me of santa barbara and venice mixed together) i got a skirt, a sweater, a turqiose skirt and a hennah tat on my foot. my dad got another tatoo, and chris got his eye brow pierced!! it was amazing. i love watching that stuff. then chris and i went back and got cofee and then the three of us went to the airport.i left.
so basically i fell out of love with santa barbara this trip. i realized when i was at DP that when no one was there, its not that amazing. and unlike other trips, i wasnt super upset when i didnt see people i wanted to. i think the saddest thing right now is just things like graduation but other than that, i dont think i would even go back to sb if i could. i love hollywood more and more but then i realize how ugly and unsafe it is too. and santa cruz is amazing and i know i have a good chance at getting in, if i could take a year off (get my residency) and apply again. but my parents would kill me.and i would love to say im just going to go anyways since its basically the one place i have fallen in love with and chris and i agree on one hundred percent,but i cant afford it, even with my parents paying for school and my dad giving 300 bucks a month. when i did the math, without fun money and car expenses, i was still 100 dollars below every month. and that was with a ten dollar an hour job and with a room for rent roughly 500/month with utilities. however, most rooms without them were around 750. and im not guarenteed a 10/hr job.
so im dead. so now my next choice (im so mad cuz i cant apply to any of the uc/calstate's because A)its past the deadline B) i would hvae to take care of the thing the guy told me too C) even if i did get in i wouldnt be able to afford out of state crap if that didnt work out.) so now im stuck with private schools and like...other stuff. i dont even know where to look.im also looking at one school here, and maryland and delaware. cuz my dad will be there.
today was wonderful.
i love the catwalk.
and the dark.
and those conversations where eveyone is talking about things they otherwise would never say.
and then you have this great bond
cuz no one else was there.
wonderful.
OOOHHH OOHHH AND OUR XMAS PLAY OPENS TODAY!!
I AM A FREAKING SHEEP! HAHAHAHA. BAAAAAAAAA...
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[15 Nov 2005|09:10pm] |
any DP-ers....
i have been trying to figure out who was on the homecoming court??guys and girls??
i know KATE won for princess(CONGRATS!! I KNOW ITS LATE, BUT I WAS SO HAPPY)
but who won for the guys??
ok, i know its been a long time since then but its been bugging me.
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[12 Nov 2005|01:38pm] |
weightlifting killed me yesterday
i cant walk up the stairs
cant sit to pee
and cant lift my arms to wash my hair.
i need to fnd some miracle cuz now that my parents said they'll support me going to santa cruz, its up to me find a way to live. when i put in the numbers, i was going to be negative 100 bucks every month.
i got the artist in the one act! hoorah! and xmas play is going well. i've been to one rehearsal hahaha i think being a sheep is going to be amazing.
lets see..shane and i have to do our scene for shugg and i forgot my lines
and our musical..well..i dunno...
and the ensemble scene?? i dont even know what its about! i just know i walk onstage, and die. oh and im a witch.
hmmm last night was fun. i played with patricks little cousin, brooklyn after we went to sam ash, and then we went to mickey d's. and froze.
i leave in 5 days for c-a-l-i-f-o-r-n-i-a.
woo hooo!
i dont really know why i write in this. no one really reads it anyways. oh well. my hands hurt.
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[28 Oct 2005|09:17pm] |
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santa cruz here i cooommmee.......
la la
i got ssssssssssteam heat
lalalalalala patricks halloween party tommorrow
i will be a KISS member
along with carlita and matt and ely
lalalala
i love how in the middle of "the winner"auditions kt and i started singing
"im too sexy for my shirt...too sexy for my shirt...so sexy it hurrtttss"
it was amazing.
HAHAH im a sheep for the xmas play ahahahahaha carla is a camel hahahaha!
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[27 Oct 2005|04:22pm] |
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[05 Oct 2005|09:53pm] |
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everyone is downstairs
woo hoo for pot lucks
i had 3 people tell me i lost weight hooray!
prozac nation....is ruining my life right now.
and so is early decision vs. regular?? what to do!?!?
homecoming soon...today was voting on the nominees..
yeah and they totally spelled my name wrong
"tatiannna torres"
what is that??
ooooh i am freakin excited for friday. its going to be amazing.
and next weekend is going to be EVEN BETTER heh heh heh.
hooray for destruction muahah
so basically i did a landscape today
and it looked like i was acid.
i love hot pink
skies.
my goal wasnt met i dont think..time to pull some drastic measures.
oh yeah and MY COUSIN IS FREAKIN TWENTY YEARS OLD.
thats weird.
but happy birthday giselle!!
stupid girl never answered me :(
ok well
im tired of randomness.
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[30 Sep 2005|04:11pm] |
Let him kno u care...pass it on
(click reply and copy the code, then past in your own bulletins)
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[27 Sep 2005|08:56pm] |
R.I.P.
ca-ca-Chameleon Reyes
2005-2005
pet, friend, lover
MEDEA OPENS IN ONE DAY!!!
um wow
so im basically uber excited about homecoming and the fact that me and carla are
the best ever
because of what we do
(and oh yeah its a suprise so i cant say it)
or else she will kill me.
and take my soul.
and our halloween costumes are basically the sickest everrrrrr...
muahahaha
oh yeah
being a senior
kinda stinks. i hope it gets less stressful...
the one good thing is..
it's the first time i can get away with doing nothing if i feel like it.
ok
it's nine o clock.
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[27 Sep 2005|08:54pm] |
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WOW i freaking forgot out to do an lj-cut what the heck??
( YOU KNOW SB WHEN… )
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peeeeeaaaaaccceee annnnndddd haaarrmooonnnyyy
la la la
see how they run
oh and i will get mike back.
with a SHARPIE! muahaha
i freakin have a red bump on my neck
the marker was purple
how is it red then?? hmm??
steak and shake is almost as good as mels.
except its kinda ghetto
i got home 50 min past curfew last night
hahahahahahahahahaha
see how she runs
see how she runs
this has to be the weirdest update ever
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